Thinking about everything at once

so I have a lot of thoughts in my head right now. I don’t know what to do. Things are somewhat overwhelming.
Yesterday I paniced a lot. I was scared because they went out without telling me they were leaving. Within seconds I went from 0 to 60. I was frightened, I threw up, and it really wasn’t good. I am struggling to handle my anxiety, even though I have my meds, they would have been no use in this situation because I ended up throwing up anyway.
Something else I have been thinking about for a while is the fact of me moving out of here. I don’t want to live by myself. So the only option I have is to live with someone. I would live in an apartment complex, if that were possible, but I think it would be quicker for me to share with someone. I would get a place quicker then, it would be cheaper and my anxiety would be less. Thats what I’m hoping, anyway.
I really do need to get out of the situation i’m currently in. My dad was making fun of me because I didn’t want to be by myself tomorrow when they are going to visit my other sister. He told me to call my mom to see if she would “Babysit” me. I got very angry. I said some pritty hurtful things. I don’t want to be belittled by him though. I just don’t know what to do about this situation.

I am also planning a short plane flight so that I can get the experience of a flight. I don’t know what the plane is going to be like, and that scares me. Fear of the unknown, I guess you would call it.
Any tips for any of these situations of anything would be appreciated.
I don’t know, I am kind of scared and a little overwhelmed right now :/
Thanks for reading.
And I’m sorry the post was so long.

5 thoughts on “Thinking about everything at once

  1. Hi there. I’m so sorry you are dealing with anxiety and that you feel little to no control over it. It is such a debilitating illness and it can feel like you’re drowning under it. All I can really say is that you will be okay. Anxiety does a really good job at making you feel like you are going to die, esspecially when you panic but the good thing is, almost always, it is your body tricking you. In terms of giving you some peace from your anxiety, my advice would be to look up some apps if you have a phone, you could try some breathing techniques , or learn some skills on how to cope when you are full of anxiety. In addition to this, online there is a wealth of information in regards to skills you can put into action to help with your anxiety. The best and most effective treatment is therapy, but I understand that can be really expensive. Also, in regards to people not understanding and making fun of you, I am so sorry you deal with that. Please know that your feelings are valid and important and you deserve to feel better. I hope things start to get better for you soon. πŸ™‚


    1. Thanks so much. I have a wonderful psychologist that is trying to help too. I really appreciate your support and advice :). I will look for some apps now πŸ˜‰

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      1. I really hope soon. My family isn’t very supportive, and that’s who I’m living with right now. I don’t know if you’ve seen any of my other posts.


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