so I have a lot of thoughts in my head right now. I don’t know what to do. Things are somewhat overwhelming.
Yesterday I paniced a lot. I was scared because they went out without telling me they were leaving. Within seconds I went from 0 to 60. I was frightened, I threw up, and it really wasn’t good. I am struggling to handle my anxiety, even though I have my meds, they would have been no use in this situation because I ended up throwing up anyway.
Something else I have been thinking about for a while is the fact of me moving out of here. I don’t want to live by myself. So the only option I have is to live with someone. I would live in an apartment complex, if that were possible, but I think it would be quicker for me to share with someone. I would get a place quicker then, it would be cheaper and my anxiety would be less. Thats what I’m hoping, anyway.
I really do need to get out of the situation i’m currently in. My dad was making fun of me because I didn’t want to be by myself tomorrow when they are going to visit my other sister. He told me to call my mom to see if she would “Babysit” me. I got very angry. I said some pritty hurtful things. I don’t want to be belittled by him though. I just don’t know what to do about this situation.
I am also planning a short plane flight so that I can get the experience of a flight. I don’t know what the plane is going to be like, and that scares me. Fear of the unknown, I guess you would call it.
Any tips for any of these situations of anything would be appreciated.
I don’t know, I am kind of scared and a little overwhelmed right now
Thanks for reading.
And I’m sorry the post was so long.