So, for about half an hour I stayed here by myself tonight, while my sister and my dad and the kids went to pick up her boyfriend. I was scared though, and I didn’t want to have really bad anxiety. I didn’t want to throw up because I had just taken my medication.
I stayed on skype with a friend and I also had Jade on the phone with me, which made me a bit calmer. These are the coping skills I use for right now, as I’m not sure what else to do, as meditation doesn’t work. I will try to see my psychologist next year. I hope she can book me in for some point in the beginning of the year, so I don’t have to wait a really long time to see her.
I have been worried about my epelipsy still, I need to try not to think about it so much, and just trust the medication. I don’t know what to do about that. I hope time will make that better. Maybe in time I won’t think about it as much. I know I do have to stop talking about it to other people as they can become frustrated, understandably so. I don’t blame them to be honest.
On Tuesday I have to get some new meds. I am going to try to go there by myself. I have never done that before, so I’ll see how that goes.
Thanks for reading.
I’ll blog again soon.