I had a lot of anxiety before. I thought they were going to one of the shopping centers and that I would have to stay home alone. I got a lot of anxiety about it.
I was lucky this time, though because my dad is here with me now. I didn’t ask him to stay, it just so happened that he is here, which I am grateful for.
But, I also want to learn to stay here, I don’t understand why I am like this. I want to learn how to survive and stay alone like other people do.
I also would like to get my own place and live independently. But that all seems so far fetched right now.
I just don’t know how to do this, I don’t know how to fix myself, my anxiety comes on so quickly, most of the time without warning, I just don’t know how to help myself.
Maybe i’m jus stupid, I have no self confidence anyway.
I don’t know, I am just really struggling,
I think I may have to get my thyroid levels checked again.
But for now, I will go and try to calm down for a while.
I’ll blog again soon.