lots of anxiety. i hate it

I have a lot of anxiety right now. my heart is racing and i amscared. ihate this. i just wish i could be better already. meditation isn’t working as much as i want it to and  i felt like i was losing control before. thats a really. scary feeling to have.

Back from shopping

i enjoyed shopping. we looked in a range of shops, I saw a big sound system. It was only $150. I really thought about buying it. But then I couldn’t so it was basically just window shopping. We bought some lamb and other things, because it’s Australia Day tomorrow. I’m looking forward to that. We … More Back from shopping

SHOPPING!!!

Firstly, I would like to thank my readers, visitors, and followers for reading this blog. Sometimes I really think it is probably more boring than worth reading. I second guess my writing a lot. But thats another post for another day, Back to why I originally posted…   In a while, I am going shopping, … More SHOPPING!!!

Blood test

so, I finally did it, I got a blood test. Next week I get the results. I have a specialest appointment in a few weeks with the endocrinologist. Which is a ear, nose and throat doctor, I think. I’m scared about that, I don’t like doctors, but I guess I’ll go anyway. I don’t understand … More Blood test

rewarded

so, before, I was planning to stay home, while they went out. I had asked my sister where they were going, and they were going to look at a new sofa for my mum, that they had seen for giveaway. I started to get a lot of anxiety, as they were getting ready to leave. … More rewarded