tonight, we had a halloween party, it was great, it was kind of for the kids really.
my older sister came and also my younger sisters friend came too.
I really enjoyed it. It was good to see my older sister again.
But I had a bit of anxiety because there was so much noise. So, i did something I haven’t done in a while, I took my water bottle out with me, I guess so as not to have a panic attack. I wouldn’t have wanted that in front of so many people. Although, in saying that, I don’t want to start to rely on that as a source of safety. I know that wouldn’t be good. I’ve been there, done that, For some of my high school, I got picked on a lot for that. it wasn’t nice, some kids can be so cruel.
But anyway, now they’ve all gone, and i’m just sitting in front of the computer, writing this and listening to music.
It feels so good to write down my feelings and thoughts, its very therapeutic I find it helps a lot.